I’m happy. For once I’m happy. After being a dark, sad cloud for a good 2 years, I can finally go through a whole day without eitheir crying or being depressed. Ever since January I’ve cut hurtfull people from my life, put myself more out there, faced my fears, slowly got myself outta my shell, & just recently replaced my old phone, which still stored all the texts that made me this way in the first place. I don’t wanna jinx anything cause life can always duck your shit up when your happy. BUT, I can finally say that I’m happy.
I feel so bad, but at the same time i don’t.
You see, this is how my life works. I meet a guy, then i like him. We talk for a lil bit, flirt with eachother & have late night conversations. But then, one of friends, whose 10x prettier than me, comes into the picture & sweeps him off his feet. Seeing that i don’t compare, i back off & they become his girlfriend.
Fucked up right? Well this has been happening to me ever since elementary.
Well tonight at my friends party the same thing happened, except the scirpt was flipped. My friend was feeling this guy that i still have tiny bit of feelings for, & he took my spot on the couch. When I told him he did, he plopped me down & i ended up on his lap with my hands over his shoulder. Now, you may think this was wrong, but it really was friendly and casual. We werent even talking about anything bad, just about school. But anyways my friend was majorly upset. Out of the 6 years that we’ve known eachother, i’ve never seen so much dissapointment in her eyes than tonight. Now i’m tryning to squash it but she won’t answer her phone. Watch, by tomorrow either she won’t talk to me, or he won’t speak to me anymore.
And these thoughts start coming into my head. Thoughts like “You guys do it all the time, so how come when all i do is sit on a lap its a damn crime.” I didn’t make out with him, nor did he fuck me. He didn’t even fully claim her yet. But i guess thats enough to be seen a slut/whore right?
Man, shit like this makes me think that I’m gonna be single forever..
I’m gonna get straight into this. So yesterday at school these two girls at school though it was cool to jump a girl in the neighborhood. Now if being pussy enough to jump someone wasn’t stupid enough, they jumped her for practicly NO REASON. Nope, not one reason. THEN they had the nerve to walk around the lunch like they were the shit because their weaves didn’t get messed up in the fight.
Now one of the girls talking shit like she a boss for JUMPING someone
I never understood the concept of jumping people or why people feel so good when they do it. You feel cool knowing that you caught a bitch off guard by having your best friend help you win a fight? You get all hyped up and shit when more than 4 punches are hitting a girls head? Did they kill your family or eat your cereal? Bitch fuck outta here. Then you wanna act like you hot shit
At the end of the day in my eyes if you feel the need to have a whole tribe of “homegirls” with you to beat up ONE person, you automatically lost the fight. And I hope that poor girl comes back for ALL yall asses one by one and her momma records that shit and puts it on WorldStar so they world can see your asses getting fucked up. Stupid cunts .
Ok so for those who DO know, this blog was made mainly for the fact that nosey ass ppeople from my school though it was ok to follow my main blog
Well, now im back on that blog. BUUUUUUT , instead of putting all my dark secrets and opinions on their, I’ll put them on here.
If you’re not following my main blog its http://perksofawallflowerr.tumblr.com/
May the rants begin…
| Anime: | Ok you're a 13-17 year old that's beautiful and smart. You have lots of friends that love you. Maybe you have a boyfriend/girlfriend or tons of people that are in love with you. You can eat all you want and never get fat. You don't need makeup. Your hair is naturally amazing. School is a blast. You're always really creative or good at sports. You look adorable in glasses. One day your life is turned upside down and you're on a amazing adventure where you meet even more amazing people. You don't need electronics to fufill your life. |
| Reality: | Ok you're a 13-17 year old awkward person. You have no friends let alone a boyfriend/girlfriend and depend on electronics. You eat all you want and get fat. School kills your soul. You need all the makeup you can get. Your hair is a rats nest. You have no talent. Everyone thinks you're weird. You look like a nerd/dork when you wear glasses. Everyday life sucks and you just try to get through each day without breaking down. |
